Testetrix

I have signed control of my genitals over to my Mistress, wife, and keyholder.

Several days ago she offered to let me orgasm. I gratefully accepted. We were in bed, and she lubed up tiny (her name for my cock) and started stroking. She asked “So, have you been good? Did you masturbate recently?” She was fully expecting me to say “no”. Unfortunately, I could not.

I admitted to having masturbated some days earlier. She immediately stopped stimulating me and walked away. “I see. Well, no orgasm for you then, not tonight, not for a while.” She seriously interrogated me about why I had masturbated. I told her my truth, which was that since my infection we haven’t felt connected at all sexually. It felt to me like everything, including chastity, was On Hold.

She reminded me of an earlier verbal agreement between us. I was not to masturbate without her permission. I did screw up, I did forget, and she had every right to be upset. She told me this was more than just some game, and that she really felt hurt and disrespected. I felt awful.

In fact, I felt so bad I cried several times over the next few days, and also sank into somewhat of a depression. It was really eating at me that I had disappointed her and violated our prior agreement. Things felt platonic between us for several days, and I was feeling really sad, guilty, wrong, etc. That’s not a good place for me emotionally.

In her wisdom, she saw my need for atonement. She instructed me to write her two full pages about what went wrong and how things will be different going forward. I did so, and she accepted it. She has signed it, and I will sign it tonight. In the latter half I make it perfectly clear that I am permitted absolutely no sexual stimulation without her permission. I turn control of my genitals, including orgasms, completely over to her. Chastity is also completely up to her discretion.

There is no word such as Testetrix — I have invented it to refer to a woman who has control over her male partner’s genitals by agreement. Note that this is broader than chastity, as it could theoretically include castration or more. I came up with it after running across the word testatrix related to financial planning.

My infection has improved quite a bit, to the point where she permitted me to wear my housekeeping dress and scrub the floors on my hands and knees. I also vacuumed and cleaned several other rooms. It felt very good to be submitting again, and she was pleased to see me looking and being so domestic.

In chastity-oriented news, Mistress ordered a biometric safe. It opens by fingerprint scanning so that only she will have access. She plans to store my chastity keys in it. I’m actually quite grateful for it. Her prior plan was to simply hide the keys around the house, and I was concerned that I might run across them or spend time trying to find them. When it arrives I’ll write more about it.

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